Feelings...

Sometimes i dont know what to think
Everything that i do to make myself better, is just making things worse
One word, One thought, One person
Thats what has become my downfall
Any of those and the attack happens
Anxiety
Heart Racing
Fast and Hard Breathing
Pain
Tears
Its horrible
When it happens, i dont even want to be here anymore
But i can't will myself to do that
If i was able to, i wouldve been gone already...
Mabye ive tried, mabye i havent
You wont know until youre close to me...